truth be told

I wake up to you standing by my bed
today I wake up , can't sleep , can't rest in my head
I hear every noise, i'm always waiting , waiting
I don't believe in anyone , i'm always fighting, fighting
you told me lies and said i was yours , that i belonged to you
don't think , don't see, don't feel , don't fight , you
i felt so ugly, who would ever love me?
all my shames , worn on the outside , a scarlet letter
i always wanted to go back , back to my mothers womb
to be a child, to be pure, to be new to be light and clean
Afterwards you made her wash away your sins, how could you?
how did you live with you, shame the child , kill the soul, mar the heart
in my eyes, was pain so bright that it would blind the one who noticed me
in my life i have met some who wanted to pull me from despair
some who cared to love me , those who wanted to be there
my shame wouldn't ever let me be free, accept understanding and love
i still hear her, that child inside, she cries , I can't shut out her crying
she won't give me peace , she wants me to hold her forever, forever