secrets

I am new to this. I am not computer savvy or anything like that , I'm pretty simple. I just want to put that out there before I embarrass myself in any way. I started this blog accidentally really , and I still really don't know what I'm doing. I hope that it helps me and maby other people. I know that I am writing about things that are very hard to write about. I am a surviver. At least I tell myself that every day. I was physically and sexually abused from the age of three to the age of 15. The sexual abuse is what I feel has scarred me for life. It's something that at times stays quietly in my past , other days it's screaming to be heard. Just when I think that I have forgiven , I feel anger all over again. I take it out on those closest to me , then hate myself for it. I am 32 years old now. I have never felt complete or completely happy. I know that I give it power, the past that is by letting it still hurt me now. I want to change that. I want to talk about it. I want to be heard by others like me.